i am moving my website to deviantart. www.twilightmafia.deviantart.com
therefore i will not be posting here anymore except on other ppl's blogs. as you can tell i have not posted for a while because i was getting situated on deviantart soooo maybe i'll see you on deviantart if not then goodbye! =D

Random Quote from a Book

"Isn't man an amazing animal? He kills wildlife by the millions to protect his domestic animals and their feed. Then he kills domestic animals by the billions and eats them. This in turn kills man by the millions because eating all those animals leads to degenerate and fatal health conditions like heart disease, kidney disease and cancer. So then man tortures and kills millions more animals to look for cures for these diseases. Elsewhere millions of human beings are being killed by hunger and malnutrition because the food they could have eaten is being used to fatten domestic animals. Meanwhile some people are dying of sad laughter at the absurdity of man who kills so easily and violently and once a year sends out cards praying for "Peace on Earth""
-C. David Coates

Insanity is Goooood

Mentality is relative. Pehaps the insane have merely achieved a level of clarity no one else has.
-unknown
good news for me!!!:)

IT CRASHED!!!!!!!

the computer crashed! it just wouldn't come back after being shut down. so now everything is gone pictures, documents, bookmarks, music, protection against viruses and that sort of stuff. EVERYTHING!!!!!! so now it's going to take even longer for me to find time to post.Sorry! the goood thing is we now have a lot of space on the broken harddrive, if only it would work! of course there is a lot of rooom on this harddrive because it's the back up one but it still sucks that alll our stuff is gone. just to let you guys know that it will take even longer for me to be able to post because i'm using my dad's labtop. it's a really fun latop though. :)

Goats and the Summer

i probablly won't be able to post as constantly as i did up till now over the summer because i am in a 4-H group that shows goats at fairs. it's really fun and goats aren't all that dirty even. the only time you get the most dirty is clipping them before the fair. but anyway the goats take a lot of work, time and energy to make them showable so be warned! i will have no more energy to post. also my first fair this year is the 27, 28, 29. i showed the last two years and this will be my third. the fairs are sleep over but you try and get some sleep with 15 or so kids hyped up on sugar and goats and sheep bleating repeatedly during the night. and sheep are LOUD they are one of ther loudest farm animals. i show a goat named Vanilla Mocha and she had two twin baby girls named Jamocha and Valencia. they are the cutest!!!!! i am also am going to show in two other fairs the washington county and maybe the north stonington and the Big E. by the way i live in rhode island with no accent. got to go shave my goat some more and clip her hooves

Internet Mystery

i love to solve mysteries and this one was solved by yours truly in one hour during the school day at my dad's school when the seniors were done with finals ! my sister and i were at my dad's school where he works a computer drafting class. no idea what that is but... he had this old photograph in black and white that had no writhing to identify where it came from what it was or who took it except for unidentifiabule writing in the bottom right corner. so what to do but get on the computer? we typed in all sorts of things. the hague church because it was "churchy" according to my sister. we typed in 1909 and church. some of the writing on the buses and vendors. we got an australian chocolate shop and a couple of dead ends for the bus stations which are invariably out of order. of course the very last thing i type in after my sister and dad gave up half an hour ago, was "gothic churches 1909." what do you know the exact same print comes up as a catherdral in Milan Italy called Plazza Del Duomo,but... my curiosity was aroused once again when i noticed the statue. there was a statue in the middle of the picture with some writing on it that was just too small. i thoght that if i was able to find a picture taken in 1909 then why not the statue. so when i typed in staue milan italy 1909 it was a staute called Vittorio Emanuele II. i thought that the fact that my dad had brought this picture to school from a yard sale was pretty cool also.
the picture of the Picture( view full size)
http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/2/23/Piazza_and_cathedral_milan_italy_1909.jpg&imgrefurl=http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Image:Piazza_and_cathedral_milan_italy_1909.jpg&h=221&w=936&sz=42&hl=en&start=1&tbnid=41DRWdZRhsFjmM:&tbnh=35&tbnw=148&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dmilan%2Bitaly%2B1909%26gbv%3D2%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DX
the picture of the Staue(view full size)
http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://z.about.com/d/goitaly/1/0/9/2/-/-/statue-piazza-duomo.jpg&imgrefurl=http://goitaly.about.com/od/italypictures/ig/Milan-Pictures/milan-statue-picture.htm&h=397&w=500&sz=42&hl=en&start=3&tbnid=jJcr0aEp5oDh7M:&tbnh=103&tbnw=130&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dstatue%2Bwith%2Bpigeons%2Bmilan%2Bitaly%26gbv%3D2%26hl%3Den

Summary of My Year on the Computer

Summary of My Year on the Computer
I must send my thanks to whoever sent me the email about rat poop in the glue on envelopes because I now have to use a wet towel with every envelope that needs sealing.
Also, now I have to scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason.
I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl (Penny Brown) who is about to die in the hospital for the 1,387,258th time.
I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive the $15,000.00 that Bill Gates/Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special email program.
I no longer worry about my soul because I have 363,214 angels looking out for me, and St. Theresa's novena has granted my every wish.
I no longer eat KFC because their chickens are actually horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers.
I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day.
Thanks to you, I have learned that my prayers only get answered if I forward an email to seven of my friends and make a wish within five minutes.
Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains.
I no longer can buy gasoline without taking a man along to watch the car so a serial killer won't crawl in my back seat when I'm pumping gas.
I no longer drink Pepsi or Dr. Pepper since the people who make these products are atheists who refuse to put, "Under God" on their cans.
I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer.
And thanks for letting me know I can't boil a cup of water in the microwave anymore because it will blow up in my face... Disfiguring me for life.
I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS.
I no longer go to shopping malls because someone will drug me with a perfume sample and rob me.
I no longer receive packages from UPS or Fed Ex since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise..
I no longer shop at Target since they are French and don't support our American troops or the Salvation Army.
I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica, Uganda, Singapore and Uzbekistan
I no longer have any sneakers - but that will change once I receive my free replacement pair from Nike.
I no longer buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus since I now have their recipe.
Thanks to you, I can't use anyone's toilet but mine because a big brown African spider is lurking under the seat to cause me instant death when it bites my butt.
Thank you too for all the endless advice Andy Rooney has given us. I can live a better life now because he's told us how to fix everything.
And thanks to your great advice, I can't ever pick up $5.00 in the parking lot because it probably was placed there by a sex molester waiting underneath my car to grab my leg.
Oh, and don't forget this one either!
I can no longer drive my car because I can't buy gas from certain gas companies!
If you don't send this email to at least 47,000 people in the next 47 minutes, a large dove with diarrhea will land on your head at 5:47 p.m. This afternoon and the fleas from 47 camels will infest your back, causing you to grow a hairy hump. I know this will occur because it actually happened to a friend of my next door neighbor's ex-mother-in-law's second husband's Cousin's beautician.
Have a wonderful day... AND a scientist from Argentina, after a lengthy study, has discovered that people with insufficient brain activity read their email with their hand on the mouse.
Don't bother taking it off now, it's too late.

Friendship

A friend is like a rainbow
Always there for you after the storm

Madness

Pirates of the Caribbean #3 At Worlds End when they are at the meeting

Elizabeth: This is Madness!
Jack: This is Politics

how come fictional characters have so much perspective in the movies?

Declaration of Independence

the following content is directed towards U.S citizens and is by no means political, racial or meant to be discriminating in any way towards those who are not U.S citizens. feel free to read anyway. afterall we are the "free" country...right?
how many of the people in the United States of America have actually read the daclaration or the constitution do you think? give me a rough estimate. when you think about it probablly not that many people right? and that seems kind of stupid because it's because of the people who made and signed the declaration and constitution that we are the people we are. i am going to help you out by not just giving you one link but both!the declaration and the constitution!
Favorite line form declaration:"But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security. — Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government."
Link:http://www.ushistory.org/declaration/document/index.htm
Favorite line from constitution:"We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union,establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the commondefence, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty toourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for theUnited States of America."
Link:http://www.usconstitution.net/const.txt
read it, reread it whatever but try and understand what it means
don't just give up because of all the big words in it honestyly try and understand it
use dictionary.com for all i care
Ask yourself what it means and why
Think about it

Check It Out

Well hello again. my sister has decided to start a blog also. So check it out! i put it under the Links! sidebar but here it is anyway.

Don't tell her i said this but she might cry from no comments

Help!

P.S
i changed my name to TwilightMafia so if your wondering what happened then that's what happened

"Real World"

what is up with that phrase? the real world? everything is real whether you are in school or not. we all experience real things during school that are in the real world. the structure of people at school is the same as out in the world.
example 1 School
people with the best clothes or the most popular have the most power in the class
Example 2 Work
people with the best jobs or are favored by the boss have the best things and usually get promoted
Need i continue? i see the similarities between the structure of people in a classroom and a structure of peolpe in the real world are pretty similar.

What i would WANT to do

1. Forensic Anthropologist


2. Photographer


3. Librarian


4. Book Store Owner


5. Artist(?)


6. Anthropologist


7. Historian Proffesor


8. Scientist

Wow seeing those jobs there makes me realize that i really need a plan. there are mostly jobs that have nothing in common.

what am i going to do?

What to do

I have no idea what i want to do with my life. what college i want to got to which my job will reflect. then i ask myself why am i worrying i still have 5 years to decide. however i know how fast those years will go by. i do like to study history but i don't know if i want to be a history professor. antropology would be interesting but forensics are one of the things i really like. tracing stuff...oh and the wonderful examination of dead bodies. the definition of forensic anthropology is from wiki... "Forensic anthropology is the application of the science of physical anthropology and human osteology (the study of the human skeleton) in a legal setting, most often in criminal cases where the victim's remains are more or less skeletonized. A forensic anthropologist can also assist in the identification of deceased individuals whose remains are decomposed, burned, mutilated or otherwise unrecognizable. The adjective "forensic" refers to the application of this subfield of science to a court of law."

that would be an interesting job to say the least. i like science and might be able to get through college but what if i then make the biggest mistake of my life by doing a job like this but then realizing i don't have what it takes. taht's the problem i am going to get out of high school and have no idea what i am doing. i have no real interests that would revolve anround a job... i like to draw but im not particularily good at it. i don't want to draw for a living it's more of a hobby.i like to read and can read fast. i would like to have a plan about what i am and who i am going to be and what i will do before i get out of high school and it is too late.

Catergorizing

Recently one of my friends that i thought knew me told me i was boring because i wouldn't talk to her. she paid no attention to my reaction she then procceded to talk to another one of my friends. but when i stood up and said "Excuse me while i remove my boring self from your incredibly exciting presence. forgive me for intruding on your awesomeness" i am pretty sure she noticed i then walked from the room into the bathroom to punch the wall. this had already happened to me at school and that just made it worst. two people telling me that?!i do talk when i feel the need. i find listening to people better it helps me to understand their reasons behind doing things
why do people have to catergize people like that? pretend that they know every fiber of our soul and then take all of our being and puts it into a little box with a label on it? why do they think that they have the right to do that? it makes me feel infuriated that they think have the right to do that to set us apart from the mass in abad way just because we are who we are. a good way of being set apart is in regular everyday life when you relaize the defining characteristic of yourself.
needless to say i think maybe i was a little hasty and she is no longer my friend
stuff like that happens so rapidly though one second you have a friend the next someone oversteps the line and it happens the momentous moment of the day when everything changes in the day of our lives.
she was never close to me and i don't think that it was right that she thought she had the power to do that.i am happy i stood up for my self and not let her walk all over me. but i can't help but think what would have happened if i had just explained it to her and not reacted like i did...
it reminds me of what Edward said about Alice seeing things in Twilight.
that things of the future are not defininte and the slightest change in the roads of the future affects the future of that person...

A Million Pieces

The song by emmy rossum made me think it was how Bella looked to me in my mind after Edward left her...lyrics:

Shiver cold I stand alone.
Feel the cold dissolve.
Black clouds rolling overhead.
Part of me is gone.
Like water now within my hands,
You're nothing I can hold.
As every second slips away,
I've nothing left to show.
I'm undone.
Without you now I'm in a million pieces.
Undone.
I'm not myself if you say I am not yours.
Porcelain white, the storm sets in.
Unraveling my life.
Cut my hands on broken glass.
Holding on too tight.
I'm barely held with tape and string.
And I'm still alive.
This heavy heart is caving under this goodbye.
I 'm undone.
Without you now I'm in a million pieces.
Undone.
I'm not myself if you say I am not yours.
Undone.
Without you now just echoes in the silence.
Undone.
I'm nowhere now if you say I'm not yours.
Why can't I just let go?
Would you leave my head alone?
Please now now I can't take anymore.
Going around around.
I'm going nowhere fast.
Here I am.I'm undone.
Without you now I'm in a million pieces.
Undone.
I'm not myself if you say I am not yours.
Undone.
Without you now just echoes in the silence.
Undone.
I'm nowhere now if you say I'm not yours.
music video link even though it doesn't have emmy in it there wasn't one that she had sung with her in it...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EsAiW1yaILs

Twilight Saga

Twilight is exactly my brand of heroin. it's like a drug for my i can't stop reading them. Stephenie meyer released the cover art for breakindg dawn and part of the first chapter. here are the links.
Cover art:http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/031606792X?ie=UTF8&tag=stepheniemeye-20&linkCode=as2&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=031606792X

Chapter:http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20203238,00.html

i can't wait for the book but i don't want the series to end. to wait out my summer like this only to get the book and finish it within 3 days with no books like stephenie's after that oh how it wounds the soul. i do have the Laurie R. King series to finish and Language of the Bees does come out soon... maybe not a complete waste then

Books

In my school we have these competions were everyone has tio read at least 5 books on a chosen list to participate. Most of the books are boring to me but their were a couple of good ones. Like Side Effects by Amy Koss is about a smart aleck girl named Isabella who gets lymphona cancer and is Hodgkin's disease. She loves to draw and always with Paper Mate pens and spiral note books. She like any girl obsesses over a boy in her class called Jared and gets her heart broken when he starts to go out with Amanda a girl who trys to cheer Isabella up by making her a video full of laugh therapy. It really is just a tasteless video that makes fun of cancer. Read this book it's short but I love the humor and the charisma in Isabella.

"Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" ~Ernest Gaines
Really... this is actually true unless of course your are being murdered because then i wouldn't be thinking of guns... but if people want to marry the same sex then what's the big deal? why should we even care about who marries who when there are government officials people in Menymar who are refusfusing to let aid form foriegn countries... China which suffered the earthquake...
Sometimes i really hate the world...it makes me so mad that the solution to these problems are sttaring people in the face and yet they do nothing because of protocol...

RBOI
The Mentawai tribe of Indonesia file their teeth into sharp points.

Rythm

Have you ever noticed that the world has a beat that continues? It's more of a pulse than an actual beat but it is there. sometimes when i go outside i notice that it is more pronounced there then in the city or near other people. I wonder why that is. Is it because of the natural order of things that it just falls into that beat of life that keeps going on?

RBOI
The longest recorded flight for a flying squirrel is 2.5 miles

Sanity

Sanity is Madness put to good use

RBOI
The brain continues to send electrical waves up to 37 hours after death.

Politics

Poli means many and even though the spelling isn't right ticks are blood sucking parasites so politicians are many parasites who suck our money instead of blood!

Quote "I believe in looking reality staight in the eye and denying it."
Garrison Keillor

RBOI
During most of earth's history, the North and South Poles had no ice

Literary Names

My literary name would be...

*drum roll*

Stephenie Shadow Cullen

Try It!!! Great fun my sister says

go to...

http://www.jeffvandermeer.com/2008/04/28/embracing-our-other-selves-formula-for-creating-your-literary-name/



bye ^_^

Love and War

Love is like a War...
Easy to Start...
Hard to End...
And Unable to Forget...

RBOI
The Milky Way takes about 2000,000,000 yars to make one revolution

Existence

What if nothing exists and we’re all in somebody’s dream? We all have no standing except in their mind and they control us. Almost like a God game. the game where everyone is controlled by the person playing. I think that the people who create the god games only do that so they have a security in their world. Like they want to control the people in the game so they can have them do what they want. People who need something like that make me sick. I mean it is their own fault that the are so insecure in the world.


RBOI

More of you brain is used to control your thumb than your stomach

Life

What happens when we kill someone? does the reason matter? I would like to believe that we suffer by taking on some of the pain in the world. Does the life matter? is the life of a bug the same as the life of a human or other animal? what if it was? What if every living thing on earth had an equal cost of a life? What is the cost of a life? Does it matter how you live your life? as a, lack of a better word, good or bad person? is that a defining characteristic or does it not matter?

RBOI
The Pizza Hut that gets the most buissness in the world is in Paris, France

Human Stupidity

I can say safely that I hate the Human Race. I would say that all the humans should go and die but I know that I would never be able to do that and go die. The truth is most of us actually know the value of a life. And the cost of it. We should all be grateful for what we have not try and further it by making money or getting the coolest stuff that we can. I mean for those of you who watch the news at night know that people are some of the stupidest things in the world. Why do people murder or lie or... You probally know where i am going with this but anyway. SOme of the stupidest things in the world were invented and used wrongly. Let me paint a picture of an Ideal world concerning humans. Guns should only be issused for the army and even then if we abolish wars then all guns will be stripped of use for metal and other useful substances. No more drugs would mean that hospitals could use morphine or anything. Along with guns no other weapons like bombs or anything. See all the flaws in our world Do you see what I mean nothing is perfect so what we depend on now will eventually doom the world. Sorry to be so pessimistic but i really believe that the world would be better off without it.
American Idiot by Greenday inspired this
RBOI
During the Great Depression 44% of banks failed.

Fear

"Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgement of something more impotant than fear. The brave do not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all"
-Meg Cabot
The one thing that i am afraid of is nothingness. Not the nothing meaning that i'm afraid of nothing like being totally fearless or whatever. But just the felling of being in Nothingness. Almost like being trapped in a dark room that has no walls that you can feel. Everybody has a stimulus that freaks them out in some way. something but I guess it could also be described as lonelyness in a way. But mostly the feeling of being worthless and being in a place where I know nobody that i don't even know. Ia also have claustrophobia which is great at school during practice lockdowns where we all have to huddle together. Yeah always great fun for the one afraid of small places. Also my one other fear is spiders probally my one "normal fear" seeeing as my last fear is yellow cars.
Someone once said to do one thing that scares you everyday. I think that it was eleanor roosevelt
Excuse me while I go and freak myself out "_"

RBOI
Peolpe with blue eyes are all mutated from the same gene

Imaginantion

What is imagination? is it just a place to escape when we have troubles or is it an actual place that we visit in our minds? do we all have our brains wired a little differently but does that affect our perception on life like a pessimist or a optimist? i think that your mind is your only safe haven for yourself to travel in. Like if you just got emotionally hurt then you would be able to escape into that place of your making.

RBOI
In 1981 Bill Grabsy rode a lawn mower from maine to california

Random

Imagination is the only weapon we have in the war against reality.


RBOI
Out of the 7 Wonders of the Ancient World only the Great Pyramids remain
The other 6 are
The Temple of Artemis
The Hanging Gardens Of Babylon
The Maussoleum at Halicarnassus
The Great Pharos Lighthouse
The Colossus of Rhodes
Statue of Zeus

Water

You know how you think that the one thing in life that will never run out is water because of the water cycle? Here is an experiment to show that you are seriously deluded. I mean even i was surprised and a little bit overwhelmed at the results. You will need 4 different graduated cylinders, one 250 and 3 others with lower measurments in them. Take the 250 graduated cylinder and fill it to the 250 mark. Congragulations you now have all the water in the world salt and fresh water! Pour out 30 mil into a second graduated cylinder. That represents all the fresh water in the world. 3% of the earth's water is fresh. From the fresh water pour out 1 mil of water into another cylinder. That all the glacier water. pour out another 1 mil that is the polluted and water that we can't reach because it is underground. That leaves all of the earth to survive on 1% of the earth's water. Something for you to ponder.

RBOI
It takes you 0.3 seconds to blink

Economy

So today i'm in school. Computer class. Last night we had a talk my family and I about the goverment and the money the government prints out. it seems that since we are in the war in Iraq then we willo be paying off the debt for like ever. The trillions and trillions of dollars that we are in debt will just keep piling up because the goverment keeps on makinjg money to pay the people. All that money gone down the drain never to come back and help the economy. I think it's pretty sad because America doesn't own anything that we make or produce. we get everthing else from other countries like china where people are paid $.5 an hour to make things that we use because we as a country consume and we want. I belive that we will have another Black Friday and we will go into another great depression.

RBOI
By the end of WWII 33% of U.S currency was counterfeit

Reasons For Begining a Blog

So... hello to whoever is reading this right now! I decided to start this blog because i wanted to be listened to. I'm not the most social person in the world and one of my best friends in the world... well let's just say that we are kind of drifting apart you could say. So most of the time i just drift through school except for at lunch were i have to be social. All my really good friends are all on different teams(how my school is split up red team, blue team, purple team etc.)I do have friends though. The only problem is i can't talk to them and tell them about myself. It feels better to write it down. After that heart to heart with people i don't even know...I also can't really talk about politics people think i'm weird. :) Also i think i have too much information inside me so everyday i am going to write down one factual piece of information that i have hoarded away.

Random Bit Of Info (RBOI)
Princess Diana's favorite band was Duran Duran